Marnee

In Need Of Inspiration

Dragging me down into complication. Given silence within a situation, into the state of thought They’re cluttered , beginning to clot. I try to put a smile on my face but sometimes things just won’t erase. No other subject can replace, try to forget and leave no trace.

Suffocated by desperation, problems with extreme inflation, depression inflicts the isolation, mental need of inspiration. Hard to swallow, have no strength, miles in need of walking stretched full length, throat is dry, no words to speak , slowly walking with blistered feet, choked by the strings but is it my own irony. I question why so facetiously. Can’t handle this diligently.

It escaped my head, reasons that have fled, oh remembrance upon the memory, to embrace the thing that made sense to me
It escaped my head, reasons that have fled, oh remembrance upon the memory, to embrace the things that made sense to me


Silent Retreat

This object that I hold, a love I won’t let unfold
Grasping so firmly and tight, seeking good insight
To refuse to let it go, a fatal mistake I bestow
Caught red handed, cast in the show
Pierced skin no needle can sew
A conniption leaves it’s mark
Arguing with a patriarch
Complication seeps through
A trust separated by the two
My head is not stable
Cooperation is incapable
So surely unable
To sustain the love
I am broken, but they do not notice
I try to warn, but they do not care
And yes it’s hard to retreat and times I will miss
But for I am not one to share
So I must silently retreat
Silently retreat


Blind Trail

I know how you feel, like everything seems so surreal
The door is hard to unlock and the seconds ticking on the clock
Can't seem to find, the trail is blind
And so it goes, my path is hidden
Yeah, The stars are big and bright tonight
but my heart seems empty
The sky is blue and these clouds are white
but to me everything seems grey
Can't seem to find, the trail is blind
and so it goes, my path is hidden

I know how you feel, the pain is hard to conceal
but time will go on, as we wait for the next opportunity to come
Can't seem to find, the trail is blind
and so it goes, my path is hidden


No Simple Answer
It really hurts to see you down
It really hurts to see you broken
See such pain in your eyes
See a dagger through your heart
Trying to find out what is wrong
is like , trying not to drown in the ocean
Emotions steal my breath of fresh air
Trying to survive this pit of despair

I look at you and I don't know why
But every time you try to smile you always cry
And I understand it will hurt when there is no support no comfort

Here we are underground no opportunity shall be found
Take your nails dig in the dirt til we find sunshine
Don't give up your only hope, we’ll reach the surface before you know
Things take time to unravel, so please wait and see what life may bring

Prick your finger on the red rose that symbolizes
All of your love, black heart emotion
Fills your veins all you got to do is keep yourself sane
You wonder why, why your here, you wish it were simply clear
A question we all ask ourselves. Life's no simple answer
Your eyes whisper all of your fears, your feeling release all of your tears
I know but please don't worry, everything will be all right

Life's no simple answer


The Reading

Parasites crawl into my head
Thoughts are confused dying to be fed
Doors are open which one to choose
My mind is crumbling, am I bound to lose?
The odds are against pushing me down
Questioning myself 'Do I dare wear the crown'?
The farther I get there's always a cost
Starting to regret I'm surely lost

The fortune teller that I went to
took out her tarot deck to construe
She said this session had begun so the
Cards started coming one by one
She said 'The chariot awaits', I'm on the journey
high priestess fluctuates the path in me
death is only the beginning
judgment is to remember my true identity

To undergo a spiritual awakening, the moon has my
events and emotions listening
Facing fears beyond current limits
going back and forth with it's tide

And I realize that's what I have, this is what’s coming in
am I ready for what is about to begin, am I, am I?
The temperance brings the balance taking the middle path
Sun gaining true freedom from limitations from the past
This tower is pushing change Immediately and
the hierophant is letting me write my own destiny

Beginning a new phase of life in the symbols of the sun
Finding strength in me in the symbols of the swords
My symbols of Alchemy


People Change

Whoa Yes you really ought to know
Jealousy is not part of my personality
Yet it swarms in a thought
A feeling that may come naturally
A disease of hate that I think I've caught

Repeat

This is the way things go
Blue eyes hypnotize full of such patronize
No doubt people change thoughts in their heads rearrange

A world you see so differently than a picture I hold in mind
No reattach, more dispatch, but an immature child I find

A hint every second but a friendship with no bond
Conversation is so dead but no tears of mine shall be shed

You gave in to peer pressure a path I will never walk again
A higher status I will stroll upon and
make a difference in everyone as I always have been

You like everyone run your life with such banality
While I roam the streets of every country's city
Yeah I know what I’ve got, I’ve got my maturity
And focusing on everything that truly makes me happy

People Change People Change


Subterfuge

A pale moon shall gaze upon an irrational situation
nonplussed by surplus disagreement, a nebulous mentality it shall present
a serpent king so controlling injects venom penalizing
volatile occurrences then giving astronomical amnesty
it says to me, to me
from celestial to the gates of misery
feeling in the middle if you only could feel sympathy
inter discourse to be subterranean but not to feel remorse
an uprising opinion you care to share typically admitting that life is unfair
a choice not given for me to choose but a path that's lead by subterfuge
and can you find that I'm a person with particular words that aren't given
and I am a person with particular words that aren't given
an action of deception striking like lightning
the prognosis of directions that I won't be accepting, no
and can you find that I'm a person with particular words that aren't given
and I am a person with particular words that aren't given
fighting for a distinctive way two can play at that game
are you struggling to come to terms with your own inconsistency
and I find this much to be your idiosyncrasy
and can you find that I'm a person with particular words that aren't given
and I am a person with particular words that aren't given
and I am a person with particular words that aren't given
and I am just a person with a decision over this



One With Nature

Why are we not one with nature
What in society is so wrong
You tell me to just live my life
But how can I live knowing things are just not right
You see gentle life bloom in the sun
Knowing that someone is now a victim
To live and become
That's a lot to handle just for one

She was taken out of the comfort of her home
To be with people she did not know
11 and 18 years gone
That's a lot handle just for one

What about the people I hold dear to heart?
The miles that carry them away
How can I know if they are safe?
And in good arms

You see people given power by their State
To make your fears, a tragedy they have to create
And all the countries people they shall abuse
Social status they shall abuse

Repeat

How can you live knowing things are just not right
Why are we not one with nature


Ego In The Midst

People, people heed my call
There’s a person among us all
A demon took part of his soul
That wants to kill and take control
People need to syndicate
Join the search or insulate
This search needs to accelerate
To find him and destroy his hate

“There he is” a person screams
Only his shadow can be seen
lurks in the trees where the darkness falls
where this disgusting creature sprawls


Your arrogance gets the best of you
Your vanity comes shining through
So many just like you
And their ego breaks through

So suddenly he’s behind my back
Wants to make an ambush attack
So I turn and then I see
So I strike immediately
So the demons finally dead
A dagger in his heart and head
So the evil is finally gone
But then another just comes along
You’re a slave to these demons
They were once your friend
They want to control everything
and it will never end

Demon in the midst - ego in the midst
Demon in the midst - ego in the midst


Infinite Arms

Is the weight on your shoulders to much to take?
Sit beside me, tell it to me, quietly now, don't break
Why would you be troubled you always stand so tall?
In my arms your biggest problems will always seem so small
In my arms find solitude, in my arms find grace
To let it out and breath again
In my arms, your safe.


You say that bad dreams carry through your day
Running fast from all your fears and can never get away
Close your eyes rest your head don't fight the reverie
If blissful slumber is what you need, in lucid search, find me
In my arms find solitude, In my arms find grace
To lay it down, find peace within
In my arms your place


Is the weight on your shoulders too much to take?
You try to think positive but it doesn't rest your day
Close your eyes rest your head, don't fight the reverie
Don't think about these things you dread, in my arms it's comforting
In my arms find solitude, In my arms find grace
To let it out and breath again
In my arms your safe
Infinite arms